I always sit with my back to the wall… This is true for me. It’s a learned behaviour. I can’t tell you exactly when it began, but it’s something many ex-cons do in fear of an unwanted approach— You can see who’s coming when your back is to the wall.
Over the past decade I have read a lot of books dealing with PTSD and trauma recovery in general. In most of these there are lots of space dedicated to explanations, anecdotal stories of particular cases, and extensive analysis by the author(s) of causes and effects. However, they usually provide only hints or some limited suggestions about treatment - usually in summary: go get help. The critical difference about "I Always Sit With My Back To The Wall" compared to the other books I have read is that it spends more time discussing constructive things a person can do to improve their condition immediately and then long term than it does delving into the what PTSD is and its symptoms.
Got the same habit from my dad as well. I always sit with my back to the wall if possible. If not, with as much of a view of comings and goings as possible, and with the occasional 270 or 360 degree scan. Can’t be certain, but I’ve had the feeling a few times that just having a little situational awareness stopped bad things from even getting started.
Listen to - Dr. Harry Croft's address:
"Connecting The Elements of R-E-C-O-V-E-R-Y From PTSD"
& Rev. Dr. Chrys Parker's address:
" Caring: The Critical Connection in PTSD Recovery"
Dr. Harry Croft presents syndicated radio host, Dennis Prager with a copy of "I Always Sit With My Back To The Wall".